I had a birthday yesterday. It’s the 1st one that I haven’t really paid much attention to or stressed out about. I have spent so much time in the past few months soul searching. In the past month or two I have really felt my soul settle into something peaceful and happy. In the past few weeks, it has become docile and content with me, my past, my life and my future. It’s a confusing feeling, but one that I am cherishing and enjoying, in case it doesn’t last.
In the past, I have equated birthdays to the insanity that was my life during that particular year…
24 – The year my granny was sick. Dying. Died. Mom moved in. Sick and dying.
25 – The year my mom died and my world crashed
26 – The year I was depressed, miserable, lonely but worked through.
27 – The year of trying to have a baby and failing.
28 – the year my life crashed down again. Seperation. Divorced.
29 – the year I thought was going to be THE year.
30 – the year of the breakup, trying to buy a house, being “homeless”
Now – 31. Another year to make something amazing happen in this life. I still have the same dreams and hopes and aspirations. I just have all of the jaded-ness and experience to help (or hurt) my chances. I haven’t been happier than I am right now. Ever. Right now I can’t wipe off the stupid ass grin that has taken up residence on my face. I am surrounded by the most beautiful friends and family. I have a fantastic job. My kid is amazingly funny. I am the happiest I have ever been, yet, nothing is how I “planned” for it to be. You have no idea how happy it makes me for my life to not be what I planned for. If I was where I wanted to be in my life by 31, I wouldn’t have the life that I have right now.
Saturday night my friends and I met out for birthday drinks and fun times. I didn’t take that many pictures because my camera was stolen (not for real stolen! My friends took it from me and used it all night!) and everyone else took the photos. I ended up with some great shots from a point of view that wasn’t my own. This also means that I ended up in ALL of them. It’s nice to look through them and see me, having a good time with people I adore. I have some great ones of folks sitting around being awesome, but my favorites were the ones of me and my girls.. and one guy.
Me and Kelli rocking our new hair.

Me and smurf. (so happy this girl is back in my life)

Me and Rizzle Mcfizzle… the party planner, the contract writer, the over-all amazing girl.

Me and Ms. Shay… my hair looks this good because she worked her magic!

Me. Being a princess. In my tiara…

And this guy. I have great things to say about him, but I will keep them to myself for now. ![]()

Happy birthday to me!
-m












